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on the first day of hanukkah my mother gave to meeeeee

A WRECK THIS JOURNAL;D

i find it quite hilarious that hanukkah doesn’t start until tuesday, but i know practically everything i’m getting:

  • HP 7: Pt. 1&2
  • Wreck this Journal
  • iPhone 4
  • String for my friendship bracelets
  • Jacket from Forever 21
  • and two more things that i still need to pick out(:

Happy Holidays Bitches.

omg.

my 5 year old cousin was watching the game with me today. i was wearing my messi jersey of course. so my hair’s pretty curly and when she saw puyol on the screen she said, “OH LOOK THAT’S DANDI!” (dandi’s kinda like my nickname around family) and omg it was the cutest thing ever, she had my crying cause i was laughing so hard.

Why is it so fucking hard to find a guy who actually wants to commit to a relationship?
GOING SHOPPING AT THE OUTLETS WITH EMMA!

That awkward moment when you don’t want to grammatically correct someones status because you’re too nice not to embarrass them.
I can’t.

I can’t just have so many opportunities to have that physical intimacy with him when he always shows up drunk, or half drunk, to say the least. I have morals and especially as a virgin. I can’t have him change the subject when I ask him if I’m just another girl he wants to fuck or where we stand in a relationship, because we haven’t moved out of the “friend zone”. I don’t know if he has commitment issues, but he needs to gather his testicles and tell me what the hell we are. I’m tired of waiting for an answer that has been rejected from me twice already. I’ve let him do things, by choice of course, but I think it’s time that him and I have decided on something official. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to push it onto him, that would cause him to be pressured and I don’t want anything pressured or forced. I just want an answer, is that so hard? Please help?

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tony’s coming over toooodaiiii((:

i wanna get lights and hang them up all over my room.

white, blue and maybe christmas lights too. i know i’m a jew, but i love the festiveness of it(:

I’m not usually a quiet person but when he comes over I get really quiet. He always assumes that I’m bored but I’m really not. I just love to cherish the moments I have with him. And I don’t really know what to say. I guess with him I’m just not exactly so open and I want to be I just don’t know how. I mean I am open just not as open as I think I should be. I crack jokes and try to be silly with him, but I just wish I could talk more. I feel like he’s bored with me and I want to change that, I don’t want to feel like he’s not going to stick around because I’m boring. I need to make a difference in myself. Or maybe it just needs a little time.

he pulled me towards him from behind. he wrapped his arms around my waist. i felt awkward, uncomfortable, and happy all at the same time. he felt the tension, i knew it, i felt it too. he lessened his grip and i thought i did something wrong, he moved his head to the side so i could see him when i turned mine and he smiled and said, “i’m puerto rican.” i was sort of confused and i said, “i know that.” from the corner of my eye i saw him smirk and give out a little giggle. he went on, “i’m puerto rican. that means that i don’t like my women like this.” he held up his hand with only his pinky finger up. i felt like an idiot, i put my head down and put my hands over his and i smiled. then he put his chin on my shoulder and i rested my head on his. and just at that moment, i actually, genuinely felt happy with the way i am.