I’d just like to say that this has been the best Hanukkah I have ever had. Even if it’s just the fourth day. It isn’t because of the presents, it’s because of the people I’m with. I would give anything to have my father here with me, but the people I’ve spent this holiday with makes me just as happy and grateful. Kianni especially. I don’t think I’ve spent more than one day with a friend that’s on a holiday. Two days in a row with you was so much fun and really made me realize how much I really did miss you. I can’t wait to celebrate my first Christmas with you and Nick tomorrow, I wouldn’t want to celebrate it with anyone else. Thank you
these past two weeks you haven’t said one word to me, well actually you have but, that was just you snapping at me for no apparent reason. you haven’t made eye contact with me, you haven’t considered me, maybe considered me as air, but maybe not because you have to breathe air, don’t you? so i’m taking you haven’t considered me at all. i am the only one out of all your friends whom you are ignoring and being distant with, the people who you said you hated are now your best friends. she stole you away from me once the two of you started working together. i don’t know what i did, i don’t know what i said, and you know that i would give the world to you so why treat me like the lowest piece of scum there is? i don’t think that’s fair. i ask why you’re distant, you tell me you’re distant with everyone, sorry but that’s a lie. i don’t know what to do anymore, i’m tired of being hurt. and i’d appreciate it if you were honest with me and tell me what’s wrong.
wow, good question. honestly, if i wouldn’t have the friends that i have today, i really don’t know where i’d be or who i’d be or really anything. my friends help me so fucking much, they 95% of the time support me, the other 5% is whether they think i’m doing something absurd and ridiculous but thats exactly what friends are for, the ugly truth better then a sugar coated lie, and that’s the way i’d rather have it. someone to throw the truth in my face and have it sting for a second or two, then get hurt later on because of a stupid lie. and the thing i love about my friends, especially seattle, is that they really do spit the truth. and you know, love hurts, and that’s the only way to make a friendship or any kind of relationship stronger. my friends are the best of friends i could really ever ask for and they mean the universe to me, there’s really not much left for me to say other than the fact that i totally respect and admire their loyalty and honesty, and especially their love(‘:
